Preparing for motherhood & what I didn’t expect
I wasn’t prepared for motherhood like I thought I was. After reading the books, watching Youtube videos and listening to all the podcasts on my commute to work. I learned that nothing can truly prepare you.
Pregnancy isn’t rainbows and sunshine. The pain of delivery when your epidural doesn’t work when being induced. Or how not seeing your baby for hours after effects you.
How downplayed a C-Section is. Because it’s a major abdominal surgery and you get sent home home with just Tylenol/ibuprofen.
How a traumatic delivery effects you after.
But then, no one told me this part, it takes a turn....
That once you finally get to hold your baby there’s an intense overwhelming sensation of love you have never experienced before. A feeling you don’t want to end, a feeling I can’t even really explain or put into words. For me it was right when they handed me my son. Euphoria takes over, you don’t want to let go of him not even for a second, you can’t take your eyes off of him.
That is when the anxiety starts. Will he pass the health tests? Is he breathing ok? Did I do this swaddle or diaper right? Will we make it home safe with this tiny fresh baby in our car?
So many new experiences. An awakening within to put your big girl pants on and figure it out. Because it’s not about you anymore. You have an innocent, precious human to keep alive, raise, protect and love. But also don’t forget about you either. It’s a hard balance but worth it tenfold.
....More to come...